Hello…
I’m Lily…
It’s 11:45… evening
I have just arrived in the Les Foddies, nearby the Louvre… as usually
I have settled down at the corner nearby huge Vitrine and watching the street…
There is drawn the certain of the rain between my inactivity in caffe and an unstoppable movement of the people outside… ☕️
Handsome waitress brings me the order: double espresso, small piece of black chocolate and one sip of cold water… as usually
I wear short hear so everyone can see my face…
I small nose, with strong forms…
Huge dark eyes and strict, however not thin lips..
I know that I’m looking attractive… as usually..
My face is petrified, without mimics.. I’m trying to be kalm..
Actually there is revolution in my head and I’m sure my mind will more or less surrender soon as it happens with each authoritarian goverments sooner or later…
and please do not ask me to take responsibility about this…
In few hours I will turn 17 years old…
I’ve turned smartphone in to focus mode to not be disturbed… as usual when sitting here…
I am thinking about my destiny…
About my being…
And of course about future…
I have been thinking about this very long time now…
I am trying to clarify what does is mean to live…
It’s hard for me to answer, however I am certain about a few topics…
I must to stand firm, so hurricane and neither earthquake could not move me from the place when I do not need do this….
I tend to give everyone accurate, reasoned answers who has proven that this is so and that is so… and repeats me 15 times a day… bothers me.. I want him to think that maybe the 16th time will stir his brain to look at the topic from another angle…
I want the people who moves in the street now unstoppable with umbrellas stop the time for a second. Then go out.. come closer to each one and slap in to face… I want them to wake up… To feel that they need to stop a while… to break away from the routine and think about other topics…
I want to explain to Michael, who has been trying to prove his love to me for several months, that he has to prove, learn many things to himself before he comes to me… The same to Neil and to everyone around me…
As you are fascinated by my lips and eyes, you should be attracted with my mind in the same way… only this way you will reach my heart!
Oh, and I want to shut them up and explain that teaching me wisdom and giving advice from their perspective is very funny… Lily.. look at this.. Lily… listen to this.. Lily go there… shut up… I already know what I need…
Fuck you..
All this obviously applies to girls as well… why don’t you think the same? The sooner you start looking for answers to these questions, better for you…
Raindrops have arranged a race on the glass of window shopper… sometimes they merge with each other… sometimes they split and continue the way… And time is passing by.. minute by minute.. time goes by as usual…
My thin black, short leather jacket lightly reflects the colorful light from outside…
I know that 17th year will come soon… I can’t avoid it…
And now I understand what I need…
This is tattoo …
Of course… I’ll start with this…
Maybe you are wondering what I will draw…
Obviously… a Whale…
The whale that moves from the deep, dark space of the sea to the surface… to meet the moon or with a victorious look… and to prove that there… there was no one to stop him down there…
Do you remember?
My name is Lily…
What’s your name?
Have you ever asked the same question about your own essence?
No??
In this case just get up your relaxed heavy ass and start doing it!